I was five years old, my brother eleven, when my father excused us from the great American dining table to move to Wiesbaden, Germany, a country the Allies had defeated in WWII, its land mass the spoils of war, divided into east and west, rebuilding but endangered still. Our ship would depart the day after Thanksgiving, from New York Harbor. It was 1960. John F. Kennedy had just been elected—a dark time for my Republican parents. They would leave the USA in the hands of an upstart Democrat.
There were gifts of champagne, a silver chafing dish and cigarette lighter. The ship-shaped cake we consumed after the ham-with-pineapple-slices, the Jello mold, and the green bean casserole. The adults laughed louder as the martinis and sun settled. Children played, confident there would be enough food and fun to go around day after day, wherever they might be.
Our move only fifteen years after the end of WWII was a blatant act of upward mobility. My father was to be the first USA salesman, marketing Wilson Sporting Goods to the United States Air Force in Europe, where officers bided time while waiting for a Soviet invasion. “This will be a great adventure!” my father said. I imagine his promises to my mother—of exotic travels and (someday) a fully equipped kitchen with one of those newfangled electric dishwashers.
A photo on the tarmac of the SS United States shows my mother wearing an A-line skirt and pumps, a tailored coat, and a pillbox hat on her chestnut hair. Her lips are a Revlon-red with fingernails to match. She has put on her face.
The SS United States was the fasted ocean liner ever built. The ship rolled and pitched in the wintry Atlantic. Overstuffed chairs in the library slid across the room. Seasickness was epidemic; many tables in the dining room were vacant. Waiters poured pitchers of water on white tablecloths, preventing dishes from sliding and crashing to the floor. I did not yet understand how much my mother disliked boats.
My brother remembers overstuffed chairs in the ship’s library, sliding from one end of the room to the other, following the lead of the rough Atlantic Ocean.
My brother remembers skirmishes of screaming gulls competing for dinner scraps thrown from the stern by kitchen staff.
There were twenty suitcases and a steamer trunk. It was dark on the train ride from Bremerhaven to Wiesbaden, reminding mom of newsreels, the ones in which Nazi soldiers transported Jewish citizens to concentration camps through these same train stations. I remember Mom’s tears on that train, the first I had seen since our migration began. Dad had missed WWII, fighting to survive tuberculosis in TB santarium for two-years.
My father soon began his travels across Europe, confident that his wife could navigate Wiesbaden in a VW beetle, to schools and markets, with two children, while using Berlitz German. In her effort to enroll me in a German kindergarten, Mom stopped at a kinderheim. The nun’s wimple bobbled as she shook her head, “Nein! Nein!” We had knocked on the door of an orphanage.
We were civilians. No privileges. No commissary. No English. Ich kann nicht verstehen. I cannot understand.
Eine Kleine Weinbergstraße. One small vineyard street. Our first home was in a mansion turned into apartments. The mansion had once been home to the Prince of Hesse. High ceilings swallowed our kitchen table. In front was a crumbling statue of a centaur playing a flute. In back was a rock garden without the garden, and dog kennels without the dogs.
The sink is the thing I remember—porcelain, hand-painted with roses, smaller than a china washbowl, big enough for two hands. Hard to imagine a macho Hessian prince washing his hands in this tiny bowl, so out of place in this once-grand mansion.
My mother and brother learned German. I learned the international language of play. My father hired a translator and a salesman, a former Nazi. My father brought the Nazi home for dinner.
Parcels from the States contained our tangible yearnings for home— baked beans, corn, pineapple, peaches and pumpkin, jars of peanut butter, and cigarettes for my mother. We posed for photos, holding these items aloft if they were trophies.
Mom wrote on tissue-thin sky-blue airmail stationery:
Dear Jeri—I seem to have my share of trouble with the Politzei (sic). They love their authority anyhow so anytime you signal wrong, they’re after you. I went right past one yesterday when I should have stopped and that didn’t make such a hit, but I just say, “Ich Kann nicht verstehen” and look stupid, which isn’t hard, and so far I’ve missed being put in a concentration camp.
Dear Jeri—Of course, with the Berlin Situation the way it is, it’s hard to tell where I’ll be by Christmas. . . Jim wouldn’t come [back to the US] and we’d be leaving so much here. . . I put a can of peanuts in the evacuation box, and Jim said he’d die of thirst, but I was only thinking of ways to make him happy in case of disaster. After the German election on September 17, I’m afraid things will boil up again . . . . Have another beer, Priscilla.
Mom arranged weekly doorstep beer delivery. Dad preferred martinis, vodka, very dry, no-fruit.
Back home, American children hid under their desks, practicing duck-and-cover. Adults built bomb shelters. On August 13, 1961—one-month shy of my sixth birthday, the Soviets closed the border in Berlin, between east and west. The Democrat president chose not to fight the wall. “A wall is a hell of a lot better than a [nuclear] war,”JFK said.
Otherwise, life progressed as normal. Normal. Mom put on her face each day.
2 thoughts on “Migration—A memoir of moments”
Kimberly, you are an excellent writer….I remember you and considered you a very dear friend. I remember your mom had a party for me, the day I had my braces off….A right of passage, I thought my teeth didn’t look any better. I was a gawky teenager….I remember I always wanted your hair and beautiful eyes….you had boyfriends, I did not….I had to grow up a bit, search the possibilities of what life has to offer….I am a grandmother now. This is a precious time in life. I am actively serving as a very available grandmother who does some picking up from school, and fairy house building in the piney woods near my home…I am a painter and paint a great deal….I love my husband of 40 years, and don’t regret marrying the geeky guy from Plum Grove, Paul Willy….we used to laugh and make fun of him. He was not a cool kid….he is a great husband…Just wanted to reach out to you, I have a very beautiful silver book mark, you and your mom gave me at high school graduation….I still use it, it makes me smile…I am glad you are well….you the writer, and I the painter….a couple of creatives…..who knew!!!! Be well, and enjoy life! God is good.
One morning many months ago, this note appeared in my email, then disappeared! I looked for it in vain. I was so very frustrated! Blame it on COVID! I never thought to check my website! And here I am today, finally getting around to revising the website. And here you are! My oh my! What a wonderful note.
I’ve been married my own nerdy husband for 39 years. Great guy, my polar opposite. We have two grown daughters, Susanna and Elizabeth, but no grandchildren. But we do have two grand-dogs, one son-in-law, and we are raising our fourth dog together!
I’m writing a memoir based on parental cliches I tried to ignore. The section about my adolescence is titled, “What were you thinking?” and features one memorable evening sneaking out of your bedroom window with Karen and Robin (I think) to do some “innocent” neighborhood roaming. For some reason, I remember skinny dipping in the Creekside pool? That’s the night the neighborhood guys were looking for us in a stolen car, and they were discovered by police at my house in the middle of the night. My parents were out of town. The cops came to talk with Priscilla on the following Monday. That was the end of my social life for awhile. Thank goodness for forgive-and-forget!
I am so glad you remember me with positive feelings. And you remember Priscilla! She was hospitable and generous. And perfect teeth are always a good thing to celebrate!
Priscilla and Jim passed in 2020 six months apart. I think about them often.
I’d love to see your art. If you have a Facebook page or website, send me a link. I am at email email@example.com. I still remember the Kim’s Got Secretary Power poster you made for me. I had it in my bedroom until my parents moved to South Carolina. They cleaned out the house!
Blessings, dear Linda!